Tuesday, March 31, 2009

thats all.

Monday, March 30, 2009

When I was in Harvard I smoked weed everyday... I cheated every test & snorted all the yay///

Song of the Day: The Lonely Island> Natalie's Rap (ft. Natalie Portman & Chris Parnell)

Almost done with another plastic bag-bag. I just need more plastic grocery bags to make special color combinations.

Tomorrow is English class again. I need to finish writing that essay by Thursday.

Paul isn't going to Los Angeles this weekend after all.

Sunday, March 29, 2009


So, here is the photos of the plastic bag-bag that I finished on Thursday night.

The outside of the bag on the floor of my crafting room

A close up of the stitching...

An even closer view of the stitching for the yellow stripe.

The roomy inside of the bag.

The inside with my 'foolishness'

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Make your way up to the stars, It's there where you belong///

Song of the Day: Editors> You Are Fading

Another gorgeous day on St. George. I love having a big window near my computer. I can look out into the neighborhood lined with Pine, Oak & Maple trees. Its a good feeling inside. I was thinking about crocheting that new green bag while watching Slumdog Millionaire on the couch with the cats while Paul is at Sac State for his Saturday class.

I then saw this picture and I couldn't help myself from laughing. What a hobo! I think that made my day better seeing that photo.

Friday, March 27, 2009


I finished yet another bag yesterday.
I tested it out today and I think I am gonna sell it.
I don't know if anyone will buy it...
A girl has to try.

Oh yeah, I am making another one as well...

Should be interesting.

It's Friday & you ain't got shit to do...

Learning new things
with crocheting.

Hopefully, I will add this to
my extensive knowledge!

Friday + crafting & gardening + rest + no work = Manda happy

Only a few more hours to go.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

tea time.

Off to bed
to drink my cup of
green tea...

Tomorrow is yet
another day.


Tuesday, March 24, 2009


I need to stop worrying about my Grandma. I almost cried in class tonight thinking about her. This whole thing is driving me insane. Ugh. And I am still not done with my Art paper!!!

Monday, March 23, 2009


Watching the finals of the World Baseball Classic on ESPN... I should be writing a paper for my Renaissance art class... My priorities are perfect!

Sunday, March 22, 2009

How does your garden grow...

A quick photo update:

We went to the Farmers Market on Saturday morning.

My crafting knows no bounds...

It was a good excuse to try out my crocheted plastic-bag bag to see how much weight it can withstand.

What we ended up with after 20 minutes: spinach, green onions, parsley, 8 carrots, asparagus, 5 Yukon Gold potatoes, 2 yellow onions, 1 clove of garlic and...

one basil plant to add to my garden in the back patio!

And to think that all of those things fit in to my little bag. I am finishing up another one (its white and yellow) and I am hoping to start selling them sometime soon on etsy. Wish me luck.

Here is one of the photos of my Dad from Friday night in West Sacramento. I need to brush up on my photography skills. I am the "Designated Photographer" of the band now... I don't know how I managed to get that gig?!

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Say goodbye to everyone you have ever known... You are not gonna see them ever again///

Song of the Day: Editors> Smokers Outside The Hospital Doors

We've all been changed
From what we were
Our broken parts
Left smashed off the floor

[How ironic. I have found this awesome band via Pandora and I have now come to love them. While I write this entry, this song comes on and sums up what it going on inside of me. Stupid music.]

Ugh. My Grandma isn't doing well. I can tell. And I don't like thinking like that. Today was supposed to be a great day. I wanted it to be a awesome day. And now, I am saddened beyond belief.

After last night seeing my Dad's band play, Paul and I came home and went to sleep. We woke up, watched some sports highlights from the night before, got dressed and went to the Farmers Market near the house to buy some veggies, made some corned beef and hash burritos for breakfast, watched some NCAA basketball games, watched some movies that Paul had downloaded a while ago and worked on my crocheted bags.

I got a call on my phone. I didn't answer it immediately. I just let it go to voice mail. I went to the phone minutes later and saw that my Grandma had called. I thought it was odd because she usually doesn't call me too ofter, I call her. I listened to the message and it was actually from my Aunt Rosemary who lives in Houston, Texas. She said that she was down there with Grandma and that she (my Grandma) wanted to talk to me. I figured I would call her later on, and I continued to watch the movie with Paul. Minutes later, I got a call from my Mom telling me to call my Grandma. I said okay, hung up the phone and watched the last 6 minutes of the movie.

I called my Grandma and talked to her. I could hear the pain in her voice. Last night when my Mom came over to our house, she showed me photos of when she was last down in Los Angeles to visit Grandma. She looked so frail. So fragile. She didn't look like the Grandma I have know for 25 years. She looked like someone completely different. She looked like her time was/ is coming up. I could barely look at the photos. And I could see those photos in my head as I talked to her on the phone. Every sentence I said was followed by a 10 second pause then her response. I know my Grandma knows that she is not going to last long. I know she isn't that dumb or naive. I didn't want her to think that I was thinking that too, so I asked her the usual questions that I do when I call her for a chat: How are you doing out there? Whats the weather like for you guys? How is the rest of the family doing too? I love talking to my Grandma. She loves to hear about what I am up to, how my job and school work is going, how Paul and the Kittens are, and she just likes to hear from one of her grand kids. And I love telling her everything.

I sent my Mom the following message after I talked to Grandma:

Amanda- "Grandma sounds so weak"
Mom- "I know. She is saying good bye"
Amanda- "She isn't gonna last long, is she?"
Mom- "No"

Mom said that they think she only has about a month left. I can't loose her. This sucks.

Friday, March 20, 2009


To Do*:

[edit-3.20.09 7:45pm]
[edit- 3.21.09 5:43pm]
[edit- 3.22.09 9:18pm]

  • Get angry & yell at other drivers on the freeway while attempting to go home during rush hour traffic.
  • Buy a new plunger for the bathroom.
  • Change and get ready for my Mom to come over to the house.
  • Drive to West Sacramento to see my Dad's band play.
  • See family for the first time in a month even tho they live the next town over.
  • Buy more bubble mailers to mail off my latest half.com orders.
  • Mail said orders asap.
  • Write paper for my Renaissance art class that is due on Wednesday.
  • Work on my crocheted plastic bags to get on etsy.com sometime soon.
  • Update March Madness brackets.
  • Visit Home Depot for gardening ideas and goodies.
  • Pay rent & bills (there goes my whole paycheck).
  • Clean house/ laundry/ garage.
  • Buy new computer chair or think of new idea.
  • Take crap from garage to the Goodwill.

*Not today! Over the next few days, perhaps. I am not a machine!!!

Thursday, March 19, 2009

The weekend should be here soon.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Bones, starved of flesh surround your aching heart full of love///

Song of the Day: Editors> Bones

In the end all you can hope for
Is the love you felt to equal the pain you've gone through
Are your eyes showing off for mine?
Your face in my hands is everything I need

What a beautiful line. I skipped school today. I bet I missed something important tonight in my Renaissance art history class. Part of me felt bad that I decided to not go but the pain I was in would not have helped me concentrate at all. I felt nauseated, dizzy and had the worst headache in a long time. I don't know what happened today between lunch and 4pm today but it was bad. Lets hope that Thursday will be much more pleasant then today. I can only imagine what I would do...

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Ugh. Yep, ugh.

Ugh. I think that is the official word of the day.

The day is over. boutfuckingtime. A recap, since its almost time to get some sleep (unfortunately, another day is a few short hours away).

-Work was actually fine. Nothing out of the ordinary. (which is a good thing) I wish I could go outside more. Today was the most beautiful day all year. Dare to dream.

-Started my English Comp. class today. The teacher was a little dull (a typical English Prof.) but he warmed up a little more towards the end of the night. I have my first reading assignment that's due on Thursday but my 'effing book still hasn't come in from half.com that I ordered over a week ago.

-Wished my younger brother, Matt, a happy 23rd birthday. Makes me feel old knowing that my younger brother is now 23 and my youngest one will be 20 at the end of the year. Ugh, I am such an old lady for being only 25.

-Stupid Ikea computer chair broke on me... while I was sitting in it. Grrr. I fell on the hardwood floor on my knees and hands. Now I get to waste money and buy a new one. Joy. Using one of the dining room chairs is not the most glamorous thing. My right arm hurts now. Seriously.

-Poppy, my girl cat who isn't the brightest crayon in the box, is now following the laser pointer. Beasley loves it. He chases it all over the house and now, Poppy is getting the hang of it too. I am happy. I was beginning to think that I was the owner of a ditzy cat.

-Selling more things off my half.com account. I just want to get rid of this crap more then anything. Plus, making about $50 extra every 2 weeks is a nice thing.

-Planning on selling my crocheted plastic bags. I just need to finish them and not let my cats eat a hole in them. Good luck on that. But who would actually buy something made by me?

Sunday, March 15, 2009

People are fragile things, you should know by now///

Song of the Day: Editors> Munich

Another weekend of doing nothing... But it felt so good at the same time. Another week begins soon. The days keep going on. Tuesday starts a new class for me... Perhaps one more step into the "Great Unknown". I need to find my direction someday. Its getting closer and closer to make some life altering decisions. I know I will eventually make the right ones but for now, I am making my own path blindly.

DI Why?!

So, I bet there are a million things I can be going right now instead of bending this white wire hanger straight in order to make a hanger for my English Ivy plant... Yes. My priorities are in check today.


Saturday, March 14, 2009


Dear God,

I can't believe that I actually watched a Lifetime movie this afternoon. God, save me. Oh yeah, Sizzler is like the shit.

The end.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

I can't wait for Friday...

I should be studding... I should be doing a lot of things. But what am I doing? Making a mixed CD of ladies names. Weak, huh? Not studding works for me tho. I got my test back from my Renaissance art class and I aced it (like usual). Suck on that, school system.

Lemon, out! Um, never mind.

I'm the man with an arm like a rocket, a cock like Burmese python & a mind like a fucking scientist///

Just something to get me thru the day...

Monday, March 09, 2009


Ugh, what an unproductive time off. Now I get to start the work week all over again. No more time off till May (lame).

Oh well.

She's scared of the blacks & she's scared of the Jews... She is walking around, she is yesterday's news///

Song of the Day: Bloc Party> She's Hearing Voices

I am off to do some oh so wonderful chores. On my list today:

-Bake 2 cheesecakes for my Art History potluck tomorrow
-Bake a carrot cake for Paul
-Clean the turtle tank
-Take some boxes back to my parents house
-Grocery shopping
-Cleaning the house up
-Water the plants outside

Wish me luck.

Sunday, March 08, 2009

In a heart full of dust lives a creature called "Lust'... It surprises & scares like me///

Song of the Day: Bjork> Isobel

Nothing new to write... We did finally break down and get a new microwave at Fry's... And I got some sweet Oxo bowls from Target... And we got those awesome churros from this cool Mexican guy and his families shop on Northgate Blvd (the best churros in the world!). Yet another uneventful Sunday.

Anyways, I thought I would post some more photos of the house. I need to take some for my Grandma too! Rats. Something to do tomorrow tho.

The dining room/ living room from the back/ side patio door...

The kitchen that is to the right of the dining room (from that same back door)...

The other side of the kitchen and "lounge room" from the hallway...

The fire place (the dining room is to the right-ish)...

The entertainment area of the living room (to the left of the fire place)...

And my crafting/ dressing room/ spare bedroom... Work in progress still.

Ugh. Time for sleep. Goodnite.

Saturday, March 07, 2009

If you spend some more time I guarantee you will find she's not me///

Song of the Day: Madonna> She's Not Me

So, instead of seeing "Watchmen" last night, we decided to watch some movies that Paul had downloaded a long time ago and haven't watched (the PS3 has a wifi connection so we can stream movies from Paul's computer in the bedroom to the living room where the PS3 is). One of those movies was called "Death Race"...

We came to this conclusion:

Death Race is a race version of the classic movie Shawshank Redemption

I like the movie. It was decent. I love action movies. And Jason Statham. The end. So unrealistic but entertaining.

Always stealing other peoples ideas.

Friday, March 06, 2009

Secret plans... Midnight missions... With emotion///

Song of the Day: Eagles of Death Metal> Secret Plans

Being artistic in the name of education

I turned these...

Into this.

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Feeling rejection... I'll burn down your house... Tearing down posters... I was never alive///

Song of the day: Bloc Party> She's Hearing Voices

I am always the last to know anything remotly intresting and important to me!!>>!>!>! Ugh. Lameness. I had to find this out on a local radio stations website. I am the queen of winning radio station contest via their stupid online clubs... Ask Paul... We won trips to see many shows courtesey of my skills! I am sooo gonna win this shit! Booyah!!!

Bloc Party Coming to Freeborn Hall!
posted by TONY BATASKA on 2/18/09 - last edited by TONY BATASKA on 2/24/09

Bloc Party is coming to Freeborn Hall 4/21/09 @ 8pm!

UCD Students: On Sale is on Thursday, February 26 at 10am. Tickets will be $19.75 and can be purchased with CASH ONLY. UCD Students must bring their student ID and can bring one friend's UCD Student ID for a limit of two tickets per person. This discount is limited to 200 tickets.

General On Sale is Saturday, February 28 at 10am. Tickets will be $29.75. Available at the Box Office and at Tickets.com.

This concert will be Festival Style (NO SEATS/ALL STANDING) General Admission.

Monday, March 02, 2009

Kiss me where your eye won't meet me... Meet me where your eye won't flick me///

Song of the day: Franz Ferdinand> No You Girls

Things I love...

Franz Ferdinand. I thank Paul for downloading their new album. It is so catchy and sexy. Goal for next year: Make a pilgrimage to see Coachella in 2010. I would love to go this year (I would pick day one because of Franz and We Are Scientist) and I know I can probably stay with my Aunt and Uncle who live outside of Indio. Ugh. One day. First, a trip to Europe (South of France) then more concert/ festivals.

Anyways, listening to Franz got me to remembering seeing them in concert with Death Cab for Cutie back in 2006 (before I met Paul) and how much fun I had going to a concert alone.

Sunday, March 01, 2009

Oh oh then suddenly you know... You're never going home///

Song of the day: Franz Ferdinand> Ulysses

Things I am glad for:

Being able to grow up. It makes me feel good to be able to sell all the old things that remind me of the past. I am glad that I am over those points of my life. I am older, wiser and smarter then I once was.

Speaking of, I used to do this photo comparison a long time ago in my old blog... I am gonna bring it back. I once was cute but I seem to have peaked at age 22... Maybe this is all part of growing older. Ugh.

Amanda: Believe it or not, it was once me.

March '04 - Age: 20
Location: A then boyfriends house playing with his web cam... Stupid boys who play guitar and who are in a band.

March '05 - Age: 21
Location: Parents bedroom looking into a mirror... Stupid post engagement break-up with stupid wanna-be thug rapper types.

March ' 06 - Age: 22
Location: My old car, JellyBean, parked near a park by my old job in Orangevale... Stupid cameras that take awesome pictures.

March '07 - Age: 23
Location: The old apartment in Sacramento... Stupid earrings that I loved so much and now I can't seem to find for the life of me.

March '08 - Age: 24
Location: Downtown Sacramento @ the Old City cemetery... Stupid dreams of being a big shot photographer.

March '09 - Age: 25
Location: The new house in Sacramento... Stupid happiness of being completely on my own (with Paul).

Oh well.

I'd show them the stars and the meaning of life///

Song of the day: Radiohead> Subterranean Homesick Alien

Dyed hair.
Updated photos on the computer.
Cleaned the guestroom/ my craft room.
Put up pot rack in kitchen.
Fixed the front door.
Tended to the garden.
Sold things on half.com yet again.

I am off to bed. I think I will be passed out before I hit the mattress. I leave with a photo... From my trip to the City... Ugh. I want to go back so bad. Many reasons why I want to go back (the people there are so interesting) but the main one is for the museums. Especially the Asian Art Museum, where this photo was taken at.