punchasize your face for free...

i really hate teengers... or those who appear or act like one. the ones who listen to shitty music like avenged sevenfold... i have the urge to punch this girl who is sitting next to me on the bus in the face. i probably could use that as motivation for derby.


ps she is now listening to eminem. ugh.

I'm cracking eggs of wisdom!///

I tell you, I simply can not wait for the weekend. I have so many things to do and I feel like I will not have enough time to accomplish them. I have a paper due next week that I totally forgot about. The problem is, I need this class in order to transfer to Sac State. I wish I hadn't goofed off this long in school. I could have been there years ago! Other then that, life is pretty good. My right wrist has been hurting me today. I had the Doctor take an x-ray of it and it looks alright... He rubbed it this morning and it hurt so bad. I am now going to need an arm brace because I apparently have wrist tendonitis. Joy!

I hate it when:

• people who have only been to a place once talk about that place like they are an expert in it. For example, people who have only been to a foreign country one time and when they talk to other people about it, the come off like an expert in everything about that place. Drives me nuts.
• deadlines come up faster then expected. I have to read a book and write a 6 page paper on it by Tuesday. I think I can do it. I just need to be optimistic about it and work hard. Wish me luck on that.

That gypsy son of a bitch burned us///

I am soooo happy that it is finally Friday. The week is finally coming to an end. I suppose it will be ending in a few more hours but who is counting? I am excited for Monday (I normally wouldn't but Monday is payday and I am so beyond broke, its not even funny). Tomorrow, I wake early for a day of excitement. I am heading out to Sac State for Preview Day. If all goes well, I will be entering the college for Fall 2010 semester. I am real excited about the future now. I know deep down that Grandma would be proud of me that I am following my dreams and will be (someday) making them a reality. Since I am broke, I will be riding the bus (I haven't taken public transportation too much here in Sacramento besides the Light Rail) and its perfect because there is a bus stop up the street from where I live and it takes me right to Sac State!!!

Tomorrow, Paul has a big test. Its the CBEST. He wants to become a teacher someday and has to take this test as the first step towards that goal. I am so proud of him. I hope he does well on the test. I know how much this whole thing means to him.

And now, since I mentioned all the good things going on, here is more to add to my list of things that I hate...

I hate when:

• people talk loud in an office waiting room. Here at my work, there are a few patients who are like that. I am not sure if they really don't know how loud they really are (I am that way according to Paul) or if these people are just obnoxious and think they are THAT important. I had a doctors appointment yesterday morning and there were a few people who were doing this. Drove me nuts. I almost wish that I had brought my mp3 player to listen to... since I ended up waiting about an hour to see my stupid doctor! Which brings me to...
• I had to wait for my doctor for almost an hour! I know it would have been longer if I didn't walk up to the stupid receptionist and complain about the wait. I had a 1030am appointment and didn't get in till about 1130ish. I had even shown up a little early (like by 10 minutes). I almost walked out and just said "fuck it" but I was already there. Then, they keep me there at the office for almost 2 hours doing test and crap on me... I didn't even get to do my pap smear/ gyno check up that I was supposed to be scheduled for. Part of me wants to find a new doctor but I have been with this practice since I was a teenager. Good news to this story: I do feel justified now... I stole a fake hand from the room I was doing my check up in. Its pretty cool too. Its clear and there is a skeleton inside (fake, mind you) and I put my "prize" on the mantle in the house as an inside joke.

I am feeling optimistic about life. I know things will get better. It has to be, right? Oh, when I get paid, I am SO pre-ordering the new Ratchet & Clank game. This fact will be the one thing that will get me thru most of the month! Only 25 more days to go!

Hate is a strong word... But I really, really, really don't like you///

Song of the Day:: Plain White T's> Hate (I Really Don't Like You)


Ah. Another day. The only good thing about today besides having the morning free to do filing and busy paper work here at the office. Yes, it is a Tuesday. The weather is finally looking like fall time and not like summer anymore. Tonight is also American History class. I will admit, I don't think I am doing well. The nightly reading kills me. Each chapter that we have to read as homework is about 30 pages long. Don't get me started on the daily quizzes either (I never remember the important things that end up being on the stupid quizzes). If I manage to pull a 'C' out of this class, life will be good. I only have 3 more weeks in this class. I think I can do it. One more test and one more paper.

And now, the things I hate.

I hate when:

• People don't tell me important things that I need to know... Then they get all snippy when I try to call them out on it. I try my hardest to write notes down as the information comes, send emails about important events or issues (I think I send Paul a few messages a day just to touch base with him) but I feel like the common courtesy isn't being bestowed to me. This, in turn, drives me nuts.
• People who make driving seem like a game. Now, I am one to talk. I have done this a few times especially while driving home from San Francisco. You know, the 'California Road Block'? I just hate it when the same car tries to pass me up on the freeway over and over again... Last night, it was a fucking Prius. God-Damn hippie vehicle!

Any who. This is all for now. I have a feeling like more will be coming up. I never seem to have a good day anymore.

If you have hate in your heart, let it out...

For some reason, things have been bothering me more and more as the days go by... I have even caught myself jotting down little notes as these things happen in my day. I figured I would share them... Mostly for my own memory and to track how truly full of hate is inside of me... Here we go...

I hate when:

• people try to remember things about me and when they ask me, its completely wrong info. Example: People asking me "You're birthday is coming up, right?" Um, no. It's 3 months away but thanks for making an ass of yourself.
• people ask how my weekend is when I know they could give a shit. Please don't ask me this stupid question just to make idle chit-chat. If I did do something that I want you to know about, trust me, I would tell someone. (I went to the Zoo on Saturday and baked cupcakes while watching football on Sunday, happy?!)

So far, this is all. Trust me, I will be putting up more things when I can. If you only knew the people I come into contact with on a daily basis, you would go crazy too.

PS: Happy Yom Kippur! I am attempting to fast today. Paul said that I didn't have to but I am showing my support. Wish me luck!

... And why couldn't you tell me this to my face...

Things I hate:

Is it possible to get or be mad at someone for doing something that another person didn't tell them to do? If I was told to do something, I would have done it. If it wasn't done, then I was probably not told. *sigh*


Only one more year at community college... One more year. Next year, things are going to be different.