2012... #43

I write this while at the library at wonderful Sac State. Pmiles is sitting across from me doing some research for a paper in one of his classes and I am on the other side listening to the amazing Scott Pilgrim vs. The World soundtrack and finishing up some homework before I start reading an uber dense art history book. I am so glad that I have this music to keep me going today.

The weeks are going by so fast. Sometimes I think I am losing my mind. Blah. Who cares? After studying we are going over to the well to work out. The last time we went there was last Thursday morning... I need to get back in gear. The wedding is coming up soon. 6 months, 14 days... or 28 weeks... or 196 days. I wonder if it is even possible to get from 195 to 150 by then. Ugh.

2012... #38

I need a day off from life. Just one day. I wish my head would stop thinking about working out, art history and roller derby.

Things to do tomorrow:

• work out
• clean the litter box
• clean the turtle tank
• steam clean the back room
• homework
• read books for classes
• dishes
• laundry
• clean garage
• work on cleaning the spare room
• call my mom
• roller derby practice

I wonder what things I will actually get to accomplish.

2012... #32

Spending some of the day in the library at school. Later today will be an intresting night at roller derby practice. I will be there till about 11pm. Ugh. Then tomorrow starts with an early wake up to go to the gym, then coming home to shower and heading to school for the day (from 9am to 415ish). Sweet Jebus!

Random side note:
As I sit here working on some homework for a history class, I am listening to some She Wants Revenge... I love their music but I can't help but think about the first boyfriend that I had when I was 18. We were only together for about 2 years but when I hear a song by this band, he pops in my head. I am better then this. Bleck. Maybe one of these days I will write something about him and how better off I am since we broke up. Why can't I get someone who I met 10 years ago out of my head? I simply wish he never existed in my world.

2012... #23

Today is the first day of school for me.

I am both excited and nervous.

Lets see how this day will turn out for me.

2012... #13

I am pretty sure that my x fiance is gay... There is no way that he can be straight after what I saw on his facebook page.

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1320831861

This is all. I am better off now than I was then.

Losing it...

Today, I now weigh 198. I don't think I have been at this number since I was in high school...

18 more pounds till I hit my first goal of 180.

Maybe I will get myself a "present" as a reward!?

Ugh.

Working out two times a day is a real challenge.

"I need Japanese steel..."

When I was younger:

(I think I was a 16 years old senior in high school) I wanted to be a sniper for the United States Secret Service. Watching Kill Bill on tv right now makes me wonder what would have happened if I followed that dream.

Reminder to self:

I need to buy Ilford paper!

Man Ram!

I made a new blog for roller derby...


http://manxram.blogspot.com/

punchasize your face for free...

i really hate teengers... or those who appear or act like one. the ones who listen to shitty music like avenged sevenfold... i have the urge to punch this girl who is sitting next to me on the bus in the face. i probably could use that as motivation for derby.


ps she is now listening to eminem. ugh.

Well, some things are pure & some things are right but the kids are still standing with their arms folded tight///

Arcade Fire> Month of May

I have been listening to the Arcade Fire's album "The Suburbs" no stop in my car since last weekend... I wonder how long before this album drives me nuts?

(Answer: Never)

Sleep.

Just a quick note before I decide to go to sleep:

Life is amazing. While it may not be going exactly like I would want it to, it is still amazing. I am glad to have such great friends, amazing derby sisters and an awesome family.

The.End.