pondering ideas for a road trip this summer to see a music festival.

this is all.

Strobe lights & blown speakers... Fireworks & hurricanes///

My (partially) ultimate Radiohead play list:

Like Spinning Plates
A Punchup at a Wedding. (No no no no no no no no.)
Talk Show Host
15 Step
Subterranean Homesick Alien
All I Need
Sail to the Moon. (Brush the Cobwebs Out of the Sky.)
House Of Cards
Backdrifts. (Honeymoon Is Over.)
Jigsaw Falling Into Place
How to Disappear Completely
No Surprises
Idioteque
Climbing Up the Walls
Sit down. Stand up. (Snakes & Ladders.)
Paranoid Android
Like Spinning Plates [Live]

You can thank me later.

He needs me///

Punch-Drunk-Love is on tv... I love that movie so much. Maybe its just because of the colors and music... <3 This is all.

One of my favorite lines from a movie:
B: I'm lookin' at your face and I just wanna smash it. I just wanna fuckin' smash it with a sledgehammer and squeeze it. You're so pretty.
L: I want to chew your face, and I want to scoop out your eyes and I want to eat them and chew them and suck on them.

Across the stratosphere, a final message: "Give my wife my love." Then nothing more///

On of the the things I love the most about cleaning up my house is the possibility of finding something from my past. I suppose its a way to connect with my past and see how foolish I was (and how I still am). I find old letters from my lady friend in New Jersey, old birthday cards from old friends and family, drawings and doodles that I did in high school... They remind me of who I once was and the person I have now become. The other day, I was going thru my beckoning cat collection looking for one to use as a holder for my crochet hooks and paint brushes. Inside one of them, I found a paper folded up 3 times with a stick figure drawing (which was my trade mark drawing that I used to make as a teen) and with the words "the list..." written on the front.

I opened the paper and inside, in my hand writing, I found a list of names... Names of singers, athletes and celebrities... Guys who, at the time, I would "totally do". I wish I would have dated this paper. I think I must have written it some time between 2000 to 2003. Here is the list... I was an odd child then.

• Chino (Deftones)
• Scott Weiland (STP)
• Ewan McGregor
• Mike Bibby (Basketball player)
  
• Nelly
• Ludicris
• Dave Navarro
• Chris Carrabba (Dashboard Confessional)
• Mike Herrera (MxPx)
• Maynard James Keenan (Tool/ APC)
• Casey Affleck
• Scot Pollard (Basketball player)
• Collin Ferral
• David Bowie
• Snoop Dogg
• Trent Reznor
• 50 Cent
• Brendan Frasier
• Sonny Sandoval & Wuv (POD)
• Billy Cogran (Smashing Pumpkins)
  
• Brandon Boyd (Incubus)
• Bono (u2)

And now that I post this god awful list, I throw it way. Its for the best... Trust me. maybe I should make a new updated list... "The List v. 2.0"

I don't care what you think as long as it's about me... The best of us can find happiness in misery///

And now I am a government employee. Well. Technically not till next Wednesday. But still, I am very happy. It's only temporary but I will be making more there then my last boss ever paid me, so I am not complaining.

Tomorrow, hanging out with my brother in Roseville and then my wonderful Astronomy lab. I have so much catching up to do on my Finance and Islamic art classes... And I have to write a paper in my art class too by May4th... AND my finance project is coming up too. Oh, did I also mention that I have to take a placement class for English at Sac State and sign up for the Transfer Student New Student Orientation? Ah. So much stuff happening all at once. It will keep me busy and if it gets me closer to my BA in Art History, then so be it. Its the sacrifice I have to make.

Time for bed. Maybe I will do some reading for Art... Ugh. I need to find better sleeping pills that don't make me like a super bitch in the morning!

Another day...

Had an interview... Sucked.
Saw my brother at his work...
Talked about randomness...
Gonna hang out on Wednesday.
Made dinner... Pasta.
Got a call from the Census about a job.
Gonna take it. $15/ hour is fine with me.

Life like wonder...

Ah. I have another interview today. 1130am. In Roseville. For a medical records receptionist. Cross your fingers. Class tonight. I am counting down the days till school is done. But I am also real excited about taking some classes this summer and fall classes starting at Sac State! I am overall excited about life. 4 months into the year so far and everything is good. Paul is set to graduate next month. We might go on a trip after, which means that I need to get started on getting my passport soon!!!

And so it is...

Everyday the world of me gets a little more interesting and at the same time, a little more sad. Trust me, I am glad for all the things that I have but one can only wish for so much more in life. More on that later, promise.

I just now realized that I have about 6686 pictures on my computer with in 162 folders... I love keeping my images organized!

Omg. I am feet from casey kotchman! I am such a fan girl!

I wanna see you movin'... Love your body language... Let me be your paperman... Love to be in your command///

Ugh. Seriously, 'Breaking Dawn' is was the stupidest book I have ever read. But I am glad that I am finally done with it... I am also happy that I didn't waste my money on that crap book. And now I can spend some time reading 'Pride and Prejudice and Zombies'!

Oh. Baseball game on Sunday with Paul... Giants v. Mariners! I finally get to see Casey after he was traded from Anaheim to Atlanta then Boston... <3<3<3